SIJING'S,★

Friday, July 8, 2011 @ 9:27 AM

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I can't get you off my mind ~ xD Why am I still awake at this time IDK , SO DON"T ASK . School tomorrow , and the day after next and the day day after next , and so on . Terrible terrible school , GOD . And it's not just the books , in fact they are getting more manageable , it's the PEOPLE . I don't understand how the freak can anyone be this FAKE . How do you manage ? I'd love to learn some acting skills from you guys .

And I feel hurt . I actually feel hurt ! WOW . I wanna give myself a "I am an idiot" badge . And maybe another "You're nothing" badge . See what I'm doing with sarcasm ? No ? Aww man ! LOL I'm typing random stuff that's going through my mind , so I guess it'd get a little weird . It's just my way of shifting the attention else where so , yeah .

I guess you guys are just hypocrites , huh ? And I guess I'm not good enough to be anything more than just a subsitude ? And that you should stay away from me ? Alright I get it . You could have just told me , I won't have to make such a fool out of myself than . You could have just say that you hate looking at my face , not some lame excuse like "Oh , I we wanted to talk , how to when you're there ?" Yeah , sure , talk . You know , I have feelings too . Not everything is about you guys .

No , I'm not angry . Neither am I blaming anyone but myself . Nor am I saying that you're not good people . I'm just saying that I'm a stupid self delusional idiot , to believe in you guys . To think you'd have my back . Yeah right . I'm sorry I'm such a fool . I'm sorry I'm still hurting even though I told myself I won't . I'm sorry I thought you guys were my friends . It's all my fault .

It hurts even more when I knew that this was gonna happen , but I told myself to see the best in people .