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9/10 is my day. I have two eyes, a nose, a mouth and a pair of ears. I have great friends, so be envious. I ♥ my sexy 용준형 Believes in selective hearing I HATE anonymous tag-gers So please tag with your name, I won't eat you. And the first thing you might want to know is that I love RAINBOWS. And lastly i'm special. In my own abnormal way. |
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 Friday, January 27, 2012 @ 8:12 AMHome is where the Heart is .
♥ I'm finally home ~~~~ #happygirl95 please ! Haahah I'm tweeting much more these days and LOL I'm tweeting everything up nowadays xD Anyways I super duper love this song ! Her voice is a-maz-ing like seriously ! Haahah , I'm sound weird typing like this . Maybe I should just start speaking perfect english . Back to my first point , it feels awesome to be back home . Never thought I miss this place so much . I think mum redecorated cause it looks kinda strange . Or it could just be me , I don't know . Hadn't be updating , so I'm just rambling , meh . Anyhow , I was thinking maybe I should post my O level results ! LOL in case I forget and my future kids ask about them ;D if I ever have kids that is . So this is how it goes ;
Ta-dah ! I'm kinda upsat over my literature and humanities , cause they're suppose to be my stronger subjects , end up got the same grade for both :/ Super happy with my maths cause my maths is like uhhhhhh LOL . Pretty happy overall , generally can get into most of the poly courses but sadly cannot get into MJC cause I don't have CCA points or higher chinese . But IN YO FACE TO THOSE WHO MINUS POINTS STILL GET WORST THAN ME . LOL it's payback for laughing at me xD Got the same as my smart cousin from Anglican High and better than the also smart cousin from Anderson . Am a happy girl ;DD Goes to show that getting into a neighborhood school isn't the end of the world . Damn I'm so used to auto-correct that there are red underlines everywhere xD So I applied for Ngee Ann poly , Arts Business Management , so if you're ever gonna ba a Artistes maybe I'll be your manager xD But damn the school's so far away that it takes three freaking hours to get there from Tampines . Imagine the time I have to wake up to get there on time . But oh well , good things are worth waking up for , so ... LOL should stop complaining before people start throwing bricks at me . Initial plan was to talk about home and house today , so let's get back on track ! Stranger : Poor girl , you don't have a home . Girl : Excuse me but we do have a home . We just don't have a house to put it in . This is so true . Home is where the heart is , no ? Rather than pitying those without a house , I think the ones who we should be pitying the most are those who have a house but no home . Imagine returning to an beautiful but empty house everyday , where there's no family warmth , no laughter , no happiness .Now , imagine returning to a family , where your children run to greet you when you barely stepped into the doorstep , and you have a warm bowl of soup waiting for you at the dining table . My point is , one does not hve to have to hugh house with classy furniture and french finishes to be happy . Though your house may be small and maybe a little messy , but if you have love in it , and your hearts wants to go back to it , it's enough . So seriously , be thankful that you have a mother who nags at you when you reach home pass curfew , that you have a father who hugs you and ask how was your day , that you have siblings that pull your hair or hide your things cause these are the simple pleasure in life that not everyone has the pleasure of going through . Think of all the orphans before you slam the door at your mum , think of the old folks living alone when you're about to shout at your dad and think of the ones who lost their family before you argue with your siblings . Count your blessings . Don't take what people wish they have for granted , because they one who'll regret in the end , is you . I want a complete family too . But I've never got the chance to live that dream . And honestly , it still hurts . Even when your heart is hurting , don't cry . |
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Thursday, January 5, 2012 @ 12:33 PM Nocturne
When she'd left , Judith stepped close to Clair . Marie moved over to put out the fire , discreetly giving them space to talk . Judith didn't hug Claire . She didn't touch her or smile at her . She simply held Claire's gaze with her blue-grey eyes , which were exactly the color of a february morning . " Beatrice isn't telling you the truth . She's trying to be nice but if you treat this like it's no big deal , it will just make things worse for you in the end . " The words were painful , but the honesty of the hurt felt better than the lying smile she'd put on for Beatrice . " I know . " Claire whispered . " No you don't ," Judith said quietly . " This will break you . The same way that the surface of the moon has been broken by the meteors that smash against it . But this doesn't have to destroy you . The shattered moon still glows . You will still be . and from there you will have to find your own way through . " It was the worst thing anyone had said to Claire all night . But , somehow , it gave her the courage to face the next twenty four hours . And she was determined to do exactly what Judith had said - to find her own way through .  |
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Tuesday, October 4, 2011 @ 10:41 AM ♥ I used to really hate rainy days . And I used to hate talking too . Well , specifically public speaking xD And well , today Ariel mentioned "Do people hate something because they're not part of it ?" To some extent , I think it's true . But to a large extent it isn't true , at least not for me . I mean look at this statement : I hate Ah Lians . Who are the ones who say them ? It's definitely not the ah lians themselves since it would be downright hilarious if they say that the hate themselves xD Most of the time , I would be those who are not in any way involved in these kind of things . Like the nerds ? Or maybe the normal people who can't stand their dressing / social grace because they do not act like that . But in another cause , it can be totally personal . Like if the ah lians did something to someone that isn't all rainbows and sunshine , they'd dislike them for sure . Unless you Jesus , now that's a different story . Like for my case , I hated rainy days . Keyword : hat-ED . Not anymore , but I used to hate them .Well , it's totally personal that I have something against it and also at the same time , I hated how people could have fun in the rain but I can't find joy in that . But see , the point is , usually it starts with a totally personal reason and soon , because you dislike it you start to find fault with it and find reasons to explain it and it all becomes the fault of that particular thing and not yourself . Get my drift ? So basically , I guess I'm just trying to say that it's in our nature to do this kind of thing . To blame something else for things that are clearly because of ourselves . Because we don't want to face the fact that we have once been hurt , or have once disliked someone for a completely selfish reason that we do this kind of things to justify our feelings . It's like a constant need to ask "Why ?" to everything that if we can't answer that question , and we're desperate , we use something else to cover up for ourselves . In a way , it's like self deception . Am I making sense ? xD God , it's such a wordy post . AND I SHOULD BE STUDYING RIGHT NOW TT THERE"S LITERATURE TOMORROW . IN THE MORNING ;( LOL I don't know what came over me . I just had to get that out of my system . Anyways , I found a letter today online that someone wrote for B2ST my forever K-POP obsession . AND DON"T JUDGE BITCH . It's sad . Though I THINK it isn't real xD But just imagine it in a real context okay ? Here goes : Dear BEAST members, hello. I am your fan, Yoo Jaeshim. I am an amnesia patient. If you do receive this letter, it probably means that I finally wrote this letter in one whole go without forgetting what I had to write. This disease I have, the doctors say it's a very rare one. I know that it's sad and all; and I know you guys will pity me, but I don't need it now. My point is, that I am starting to forget all six of you soon. When the disease hadn't attacked me yet, I was a great B2UTY. I followed all your events, bought all your merchandise, your albums. I loved you guys. And I still do now, at least at this point of time when I'm writing this letter. I do not wish for anything more, just to let you guys know that I loved BEAST, because they have been an awesome group, always bringing laughter and great music for all of us who love you so much. I'm glad that I have been a B2UTY, although I will forget that sooner or later. Lately, I've started to forget all the members' names, I can't seem to fit the names with the faces anymore, I guess, if I saw you six in person, I might not be able to recognise you anymore. All but one. Yong Junhyung. Yong Junhyung-ssi, I don't remember if you used to be my bias or not, but your name and face seems to be the only one that I cannot forget. I wonder why is that the case. Perhaps, you learn magic (: I will gradually, even forget the existence of all six of you, forget BEAST, forget the fact that I was a great fan, and all the products I bought may soon grow to be useless and worthless things in my eyes that hold no more importance. But at the point of time I'm writing this, I am still a fan, or at least, I remember that I am. Thank you, BEAST, for bringing me joy, even though my condition has deteriorated to the fact that I can't even remember those glad memories you guys brought me, made me a happy fangirl. But here I am, still believing that I still love all of you. Yoon Doojoon, Jang Hyunseung, Yong Junhyung, Yang Yoseob, Lee Gikwang, Son Dongwoon. Now, as I'm writing this, I'm referring to wikipedia for your names. That's just how bad it is. Even though, you might not receive this, even though, I may not seem to be very important to your eyes, I know that you will protect and look after all your B2UTIES forever, like how we do for you. Thank you. I love you guys, and I wish I could remember why, and I wish I could remember my love for you forever, but I know, that is not possible. I hope this letter brought you some strength today. Perhaps, when I've completely forgot everything, a part of my subconscious will still remember you six as the men I loved, for everything you guys did. I am proud of all six of you, and though I cannot remember you forever, please stay together forever. Also, Yong Junhyung-ssi, perhaps, I may forget you one day too; as I silently hope that I, Yoo Jaeshim, will perhaps linger in your minds for a while more today. Please stay strong and healthy, this is the BEAST we B2UTIES want to see. I must remember to post this letter immediately before i forget again. BEAST, thank you. For all the songs, the fun, the hard work. I love you. Forever. Even if, I can't remember that." Yours, Yoo Jaeshim. I think this is what idols are good for . Though it may seem silly to chase after something that you might never obtain , this hope that one day you might actually meet them or even touch them , it keeps some people going . It gives them strength . It inspires them to do things . And even the idols themselves , by having fans , it gives them a reason to want to continue what they're doing . It's like a win-win solution , where one gets to fulfill their dreams and the other gets strength from them . I don't know . This may all sound so stupid to you , but if you're laughing at someone's dream , than YOU are the stupid ones . On rainy days , I used to remember things and cry .
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@ 9:56 AM ♥ Everyone has a future and everyone hopes that their life can shine. In order to accomplish that, however, they must borrow the strength of others since it’s not possible on your own. They’re then physically taken advantage of by a museum that creates that success for you and at times you’ll find yourself acting something that you don’t want to do. It’s a song about people that use innocent people that are only innocently searching for hope. But all I want is to be able to work hard and remember why am I doing this for .
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Wednesday, September 14, 2011 @ 8:09 PM ♥ And how you miss it all so bad. But everyone starts to reminisce about the people that once mattered; The ones that used to care, but started to shatter. This chapter can never be erased . Even if it aches , it can never be replaced .
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Monday, July 11, 2011 @ 9:10 AM ♥ A bitter day, everything will erase this way Someday it will all be forgotten I will probably smile when the time comes, but for now I can’t do anything about it Even though the weather is nice, I don’t feel good at all Feels like it’s making fun of me, I start to get angry Drowning in a difficult situation, I start to thrash But the world is the exact opposite, it spins perfectly fine as if nothing is wrong And you are also living well, It's not fair, this is really not fair Even the stares from the people passing by shows sympathy for me Nothing is working out for me and because I missed the stop I was supposed to be off I am suddenly reminded by the thoughts of you The beaten up bus stop I got off looked even lonelier today so the tears just started to fall down And like that I kept on walking for a long time I started to miss you, who I used to just hate Because I was so pathetic in my past days when I didn’t even have the strength to hold on to you A bitter day, everything will erase this way Someday it will all be forgotten I will probably smile when the time comes, but for now I can’t do anything about it I can’t do anything about it Even though I’m really sad that I was reminded of you again, It will really be hard for me, but I will keep trying to erase No matter what I say, it will all sound like an excuse to you Even when I tell you that all of these words are for you You were really too much for me, I almost felt uncomfortable like wearing the clothes that didn’t match me You were beautiful, but watching you wither away next to me, how do you think that would make me feel? I shouldn’t have started at all, I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes the first time I met you I thought that I would feel weightless if I let you go, but that wasn’t it My mind understood the farewell, but my heart wouldn’t give in Every day I would repeat drawing you and erasing you I would handle all the suffering, I just wish that you would be happy So that I this decision I made would not be worthless or bring any regrets I will always pray for you A bitter day, everything will erase this way Someday it will all be forgotten I will probably smile when the time comes, but for now I can’t do anything about it I can’t do anything about it Even though I’m really sad that I was reminded of you again, It will really be hard for me, but I will keep trying to erase I will erase you little by little, when time passes I will be able to remember you with a smile Instead of the cliché phrase saying that time is the cure, please tell me a more definite way You will be able to receive even a better love compared to the one you received from me, you are still beautiful You said we were going to remain forever, in the end we are the same as the others A bitter day, everything will erase this way Someday it will all be forgotten That day will come When would you see ?
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